The Pursuit of a Better Me

April 20, 2019

This is something that I don't talk about online because it is a very personal topic to me and that is my weight. Now the reason it's so personal it because like a lot of people it can be embarrassing to put all that information out in the world to be made fun of or judged for one's appearance. I know I am not a big girl, I know that to most people I look like a healthy weight and that I am not overweight by pure looks. However for my height, I am considered overweight and to myself, I am generally unhappy with my weight at the point in time.

In 2018 I lost a lot of weight very quickly without ever really trying. I was broke so I ate a lot of food at home, I was walking more because of work and I was doing a work out once a week to relieve stress from work and have some me time. It was these unintentional things that led me to lose around 10kg in about a month a half. I looked in the mirror one day and was amazed at what I looked like. I went out and bought new clothes that show my stomach, something that I had never done before because I didn't like the way the 'fat" bulged over my pants. But I was so happy with my look.

February 15th 2018

However as time went on, I got lazy with these habits and started to slowly gain back all the weight I had lost, plus some extra. From March 2018 to Now, April 2019 I have gained around 12kg. pretty much back to where I started from. When I got back from the USA I had given myself until February to settle back into Australian life and before I needed to get back into gear to work out more. This did not happen as I had planned. It was a lot harder to break the habit of eating what I wanted. I was eating better because I didn't have Disney park foods as temptations however I was still eating more than what I should and not having a job, I was not getting the number of steps I needed to maintain my current weight let alone lose the extras.

Every week I kept telling myself next week is when I still start eating healthy again, and the week after I could say the same thing. It was an endless cycle. The one thing I did have going for me as I was consistently weighing myself every Sunday to keep track of my weight, something I did until I went away on holidays. However, I did get straight back into that last week.

Recently I have been going through; photos of 2018, specifically when I wasn't my smallest and ideal weight. I was so happy and fitting into the clothes I loved, crop tops, shorts, and living my best life. now I tend to wear leggings and loose shirts that cover my stomach as much as possible. I hate it, I want to be able to wear the clothes I love again.

I am writing this, very long, blog post as a way to be public about it and hope this will motivate me and keep me accountable. I have wanted to do a before and after weight loss journey blog post for so long, however, it seems my before and after are reverse right now. So my aim is to keep this theme of weight loss and healthy going every few weeks or so to keep myslef in check and if anyone else is intersted, please feel free to join in with this jounry id love to hear from you!

Below are my current photos, I am wearing my goal outfit, which is the same outfit in one of the picture above of me in March 2018.

January 24th 2019

So far this week I have been pretty good on the eating side, nothing too crazy and I've been drinking lots of water. Today I did have half a block of chocolate, but its all baby steps. I want to lose this weight in a healthy way so that I keep the habits I learn and am able to keep the weight off next time I lose. Because as may of us on this journey, 2018 was not the fisrt time losing alot fo weight, However this time I really want to stick to it longer and stay at a healjty weight and healtjy olifestyle.

Here is closer before and after comparison.